Thursday 29 July 2010

I'm Sorry, Im Not Perfect!!!

This is a confession... to ask pardon, for not being perfect like you. I know I should be perfect and I know you think I don't try hard enough to be like you. It's just that I know I can't reach your standards of perfection.


What? You never said you were perfect?? OH... I know... but you didn't have to say you were perfect. I know you think you are because you believe everything you say and do is right and I know that because in my imperfections, I disagree with you- but you never give in- you stand behind yourself. Even when I'm hurt and crying, you never waiver... never an excuse. That reeks of your self-pride in your perfection.


I could follow you around and do exactly what you do in just your precise manner, but I know I would still fall far from your perfection... I'm not you and it is obvious I can't do anything right for you. So I think I will stand back, watch you do everything perfectly ... that's what you will tell people happened anyway. I will just stand back here... watch you do things the way you want to do them... and I will throw in a meager apology from time to time just because you don't deserve to put up with me and my short comings. I will however strive to be my best. I want to be the best me that I can be and I've realized... I was perfectly made to be imperfect... and your perfection is a hindrance to my imperfection.


Yeah.. I think I will move on now. Gotta go... I have lots of mistakes to make and many regrets coming my way... you wouldn't know about those things... So I won’t stick around to bore you with them. I don’t want to miss them though. I might see you when I pass your way, my dirty, wrong self passing by... Maybe you can wave at me from your perfect little bubble while you sit there being perfect... and I'm out ENJOYING LIFE AND MAKING BAD CHOICES... SEE YA!!!!!